Faith is

Okay so below is what i tried to post last week but let's just say that in this beautiful country having a modem and paying for internet doesn't necessarily mean you will have connectivity

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Last week Tuesday was the day I decided to resurrect this blog. I got an email from a friend that analyzed her shattered dreams and I was in turmoil. I couldn’t talk to her at that moment because of the time difference (me being in Naija and all) and so I just took a break from work, turned on my recorder and started to talk. This audio is what fell out. This is unedited so I beg your pardon in advance. Yesterday, I listened to it and started transcribing it and tried to clean it up and make it all poetic for this blog. But this blog started about 5 years ago about the unspoken and the original just touches me more than the one that rhymes, and so here it is.
Ummm I’m still trying to edit it and all but I think I’m falling in love with the spoken and not the clean edited things of life.
So …..
We will see.
Below is the transcribed version just in case the audio is muffled. Of course when I was typing it out, I started to add some stuff that wasn’t in the original, tsk tsk kafo
I MISsED YOU GUyS LIKE cRAZY, hi blogville.

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How do you define faith
What is faith to you?
What is the first thing that comes to mind when someone says the word faith
When I was a child, faith was the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen
And that meant absolutely nothing to me, but I memorized when I was a kid
Faith was the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen
Hebrews 11:1
Faith was the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen
But in this reality, you have to admit that when you grow up, it is not what you memorize as a kid that gets you through each day but what you have experienced to be true
So let’s take a minute or two to define faith
Faith to me, is not just the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen but it goes deeper
It goes a little bit deeper, because you have to admit that faith is tough.
Someone once said that faith is believing God is true to his word when my feelings are screaming something different
Another said that faith is certain belief in what I know to be true but cannot at this moment feel or touch
Another one said faith is completing my small part of the picture or puzzle without being able to see the finished project
I say faith is walking blind without a compass assured that each step you take brings your closer to your destination
Faith is being assured of that destination even though you are blind and have no idea where you are going but you are at peace because you know that all you have to do is take the one step each day.
That is what faith is to me
Faith is waking up and realizing that everyone you love is dead, and everything you sought to acquire over the last 30 years is gone with the tsunami and yet you still say it is well with my soul
faith is putting 210 thousand dollars into a degree and realizing that after 5 years you have nothing to show for it because every single door you thought would be open has been rudely slammed shut in your face that is faith when you wake up the next morning and say God is good
Faith is leaving the one you love, getting on a plane with a one way ticket not sure of how or when you will return
Faith is praise instead of tears
It is worship that hurts
Faith is an empty womb in a body that lives in a house with a baby’s crib
Faith is blood covered hands digging through the rubble in search of a loved one
You gotta want faith, you see, faith cannot be passed to you by your father or your mother, faith is not something that you get through DNA,
It cannot be bought or sold
Faith is something that is earned, thru the hard fought tears that trickle down your face when no one is watching
I have to admit that my faith everyday is not the same because some days I wake up and realize I barely have enough faith to roll myself out of bed, talk less about plastering a smile on my face.
I have just a little bit of faith to get me out of bed in the morning, I don’t have faith to be joyful, I don’t have faith to smile, I just have the faith it takes to not commit suicide
You see you gotta define faith, you gotta realize that faith cannot be bought or sold, it cannot be passed down to you by your father or mother or encode into your genetic sequence
You gotta want it and you gotta want it bad, but in order to get faith, you got to go thru the trials
Some of us say Lord give me a little bit more faith but what we are hoping for is Lord show me more so I won’t have to rely on you so much
And I have to admit, I have to admit, I have to admit that nine days out of 10 I would take sight over his spirit, God’s presents over his presence, because all I want to be able to do is get through the day and I would really preferred it if He would just give me what I want, instead of asking me to walk by faith
In order to walk by faith you gotta have actions
Faith is realizing that sometimes you will leave your house with an empty gas tank and still hope to reach your destination 30 miles away.
Faith is trusting when everyone around you calls you a fool
Faith is waking up each morning and believing that His word is true even though you can’t see the manifestation in your life, faith is realizing that your feelings are THAT, only feelings and they can’t go any deeper than your skin so you have to realize that what gets you through is the fact that He is God and He is good
Faith is rooted in his word and that is why though the tears fall I quote Matthew 10:30 which says that my hairs are numbered and not counted.
Knowing that my hairs are numbered makes me realize that my days are numbered and ordered
Isaiah says that my name is engraved on his palm, not written to be erased by the cold bitter sting of disappointment. Engraved by the same nails that nailed him to the cross and so I know I will not be lost because He who began a good work will see it to the day of completion
I put faith in that.
I rest in that.
I sleep on that
What do you put faith in because faith is more than just memorizing the words faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen
you gotta realize that faith cannot be bought or sold, it cannot be passed down to you by your father or mother or encode into your genetic sequence
Faith has to go a little bit deeper, faith has to hurt, faith is the tears running down your face when your spouse is knocking on death’s door in a hospital room and you have nothing. Your home is double mortgaged to pay for the hospital bills the insurance company refuses to handle and yet you still trust in the one who was present as your birth.
That is faith, anything less than that is a waste of my time

15 comments:

Patrina's Pencil said...

I so enjoyed listening to your strong passion about Faith. I loved this way that you presented it! Powerful - alive - personal and real. You are a very talented being, Kafo. God rejoices over you with singing.

Loved the song playing in the background.. "I will be there". I remember the first time I heard this song too...I was in the parking lot at Wallmart. It was 100 degrees outside and I was inside the car. So I rolled down the windows and let the passers by listen too :) It also brought me to tears. It was a very 'right on moment' that touched me deeply. Music carries the seeds of healing...if we have ears to hear.

blessings to you & thanks for visitng me on the bridge.

patrina <")>><

Jaycee said...
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Jaycee said...

"Faith is walking blind without a compass knowing that each step you take brings you closer to your destination."

Beautiful, too beautiful.

FAITH...

Faith cannot be felt until we experience it for ourselves.

Kafo, I missed you and your realness, and I'm glad you're back. I enjoyed your audio post.

Of course, you already know this will be featured on the side-bar of the LAMP :)

ps: Kafo, is there a way you could mail the podcast to me? I'd love to share it on FB, if you don't mind. And even on my blog, if you don't mind.

Rainyjoy said...

Faith is walking blind without a compass knowing that each step you take brings you closer to your destination... that says it all for me.

thanks for sharing

disgodkidd said...

hi kafo, i did not know you were still in 9ja. can we talk on phone? you know how to reach me. now lemme go read...

disgodkidd said...

kafo, this post deserves a standing ovation. and like jaycee, i am sharing it on my blog too. hope you dont mind. i have included the link to this page. miss you plenty too.

Daydah said...

Rainyjoy said it all for me...miss you...

Kafo said...

@ Daydah: I texted you yesterday u didn't get back to mii sniffle sniffle

@ disgodkidd: feel free to share, God's blessings can't be rationed.

@ Rainyjoy: :) i like your name rainyjoy by the way

@ Jaycee: i sent an email back to your msn account yesterday, did you get it. hopefully i can email you the video today

@ Patrina's Pencil: I love SCC and his song is one of my fave in the world, thanks for stopping by and all your kind words, stay beautiful


later blogville
i'm not sure i will be able to log in and comment to your comments as often as i like but we will see

Maid of Heart said...

This is powerful! Driving the word deep in me.

Kafo said...

:) have a blessed weekend beautiful

The Life of a Stranger called me said...

Kafo I have missed you a great deal more than you can imagine.

And you know what, Faith is having the boldness to speak your mind knowing fully well that it will encourage another (just like you are doing). That is Faith. Faith is holding out, that whatever happenes, God remains God, that is faith.
And the belief that one day I shall see you. That is real faith. have a wonderful weekend, my love.

Faith is that knowledge that at the end of the day, all will be well.

2cute4u said...

I'd just be back to listen to it again cause this is just too good..

jhazmyn said...

These were words that could only have been born through experience...thank for sharing that experience Kafo

BIGshot said...

Awesome!!!

BIGshot said...

Awesome!!!