To write is to ...

To write is to think;
                    to think is to allow the mind to exercise its ability to reason,
                                                                                                           to reason is to be immersed in the reality of one’s circumstance and reach a conclusion.
The only conclusion that one can reach is that pain exists and I am married to him.
To write is to think;
                    to think is to allow the mind to exercise its ability to dream,
                                                                                                           to dream is to be immersed in a fantasy that is predicated upon an illusion.
The only illusion that survives in this reality is that life isn’t fair and dreams are lived only in the subconscious state of sleep, not in real life.
To write is to think;
                    to think is to allow the mind to exercise its ability to hope,
                                                                                                           to hope is to be immersed in His word allowing it to eclipse all trials to reveal a higher purpose.
The only purpose that one can see at this level  is that pain exists, and is necessary but He controls it. God is the blessed Controller that allow your dreams to rise and fall all in an attempt to show the world His glory. 




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I cannot lie on this blog. I cannot feign happiness or joy and so i have not written in a while because most of my thoughts are toasted in pain and buttered in self pity. Forgive my absence but as the french say 
"poco a poco" = little by little
the Son shines thru


HAPPY NEW YEAR Y"ALL
I'm at a loss for words
and so this blog remains stale
No that is not true.
I rarely am at a loss for words
right now I'm just at a loss for positive words that can form a coherent thought.



But happy new year y'allllll