Sabbath Series: 18 -Vocal Cord Creator Speaks

My sister-friend just hit a major snag and i had no words. I was speechless and so i sat and thought of the One who made the vocal cords that allows mii to speak and it came.
His words not mine, so be encourage


God's love is meteoric, his loyalty astronomic, His purpose titanic, his verdicts oceanic. Yet in his largeness nothing gets lost; Not a man, not a mouse, slips through the cracks. God is not a man, so he does not lie. He is not human, so he does not change his mind. Has he ever spoken and failed to act? Has he ever promised and not carried it through? So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. If the LORD delights in a man's way, he makes his steps firm; though he stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with his hand. When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future. So trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track. So wait on the Lord, be strong and don't lose hope, wait on the Lord. Wait on me, because I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.


Ps. 36:5-6; Num 23:19; Hebrews 10:35-36; Psalm 37:23-24; Ecclesiastes 7:14; Prov 3:5-6; Ps. 27:14; Jer. 29:11
versions used include the NIV, Message, KJV, New Living Translation, Amplified

on a side note please as u go to church this weekend and interact with Christians please do two things for yourself. Make a concerted effort to
  1. Be real
  2. Seek Christ

happy sabbath
i'm out

Foiling Love

Forgive my shortsightedness and selfishness.
I should have seen u today if only to watch your
lips curve into a smile or watch them move as u spoke.

I should have seen u today as messy as I am just so u could
hold mii and make mii feel better.
I should have seen u today
just so we could share a common emotion whatever it ended up
being, be it positive or otherwise.
I should have seen u even if u had no
smile I could hear or comfort giving hug or gorgeous lips or an emotion to share.

I should have seen u just because u wanted to see mii, the real mii.
So think about it
first before u rush to forgive.
Because I took away a moment we could have shared, I preempted
the birth of a laugh, a smile, a hug, even a tear.
Today, I took away your choice and ability to love mii.


I will not commit
until i know
I will not commit
until i own a blender
I will not commit
until this is over
I will not commit
until i've recieved an email
I will not commit
until i know the plan
I will not commit
until I am sure
I will not commit
until He speaks
I will not commit
until the door opens
I will not commit
I will not live
I will wait
I will sit
I will do nothing
until I die

to be sure
to die.

wow i think i like this one

it just hit mii this second
wish i could make it pretty and use beautiful words
but i need to sleep
this one screams comprehension so i hope u can relate

maybe i will issue a remix in the future

Progress Report

so yeah I've been cleaning out my closet and dealing with all this junk in my mind but then the truth terrifies mii to hide and i do so once again.

how am i?
I took my first vacation as an adult
I am 25 years old and this is the first time IN MY LIFE that i have planned a vacation or trip for pleasure and seen it thru. I have a long history of cancelling things and changing plans or leting logic take control but being that i am 25 and this is quarter life crisis year ... i'm grabbing the bull by the horns

So Sunshine and I went to D.C. and we were tourist, i walked until my legs hurt and read and took pictures, mercy i think we have at least 1000 pics from the five day period.

I kinda gave my mother a piece of my mind, similiar to conversations that Vera has with her wonderful moms but mine of course was a departure from the norm. My mother and I usually agree or I just keep silent and vent to myself in the shower but last week I just let it out and I think I felt good about it.

I realize that I make rationalizations for my actions to people alot
I need to be more mindful of that
I feel the need to explain the way my mind works instead of just letting it all be
so in this month of august i need to figure out my hair look and also how to stop making rationalizations and justifications and offering explanations
i feel another post forming ....

anywayz sha

Responses to previous post
@ Writefreak: I am fine ooooooooooooooo, taking it one day at a time

@ Chayoma: nah u are not talking out of your behind, it does apply on so many different levels, I'm glad u found it soothing, i have to admit that it was more for mii than it was for the viewing audience but i'm glad it provides you with the same sense of calm

@ Chari: u said it too beautifully i can't reply

@ Robyn: i don't know oooooo

@ Daydah: i think i owe you a call, sorry

@ Tisha: :)

@ Buttercup: it is wierd cuz everyone is getting the subtle calm vibe of it but to mii it is this immense struggle and war hnmmmmmmmmmmmmm

@ Solomonsydelle: i have been delinquent in keeping up with the kids, i am sorry ooo. glad u could relate

@ Debbie: thanks


This is my element, my comfort zone
the noise and uniformity of the masses
calms my soul and propels mii to speak
it reminds mii that i am unique and as
the sweat trickles down my thighs i
find the strength to give rise to the
words that make my fears come alive

the dichotomy of this reality
is the complexity of the tongue need to lead the heart
and so i seem to be relaxed and at peace when inside i am screaming for release