Summer Consumption: 1- REAL SEX

I would never EVER have picked up a box on sex this time last year or the year before that or the 22 years that preceded that one but earlier this month I felt the need to educate myself not on sex but on chasity because like any Christian in relationship I now have to set boundaries on what is kosher and what is not.

Let mii preface this by saying that there are some things that are on the DON'T DO list and SEX along with Drugs and Alcohol top that list but then there is a lot of gray area between holding hands and doing the deed, so yeah and being that talking about sex in church is a moot issue (they make it seem like it is the ANTICHRIST) i turn next to books for advice (yes i know i should ask my Pastor in private and all that jazz but then my pastor is my uncle so yeah let's just say that i will be on the next plain to Otun Ekiti where i will live out the rest of my years feeding the homeless)

So yeah, I wish I could say that this book is all that and that is answers all the questions but it doesn't.

This book
  1. Reiterates the point that sex should be between a married man and woman
  2. Dispells some myths that society and the church have about sex
  3. Educates the reader on how sex is a communal thing (i think this was the most original part of the book)
  4. Offers tips on how to remain pure: i think my fave. part was when she said if you can't do it in front of your father don't do it at all WHATTTTTTTTTTTTT (okay then she said that being that that is kinda Freudian and creepy you should use the Rotunda rule)
  5. Is real, of course being that this is my first relationship/sex/chastity book I am not yet an expert.
  6. Ties in pornography and masturbation and I must admit adequately informs the reader on how it is just part of the slippery slope

This book does not

  1. Draw the line on what is kosher and what is not (DANG)
  2. Preach on how Sex is the devil's younger brother's son
  3. Use Biblical text to develop her statements (but then there is nothing on porn in scripture)
  4. Try and convince you that you shouldn't have sex, it just states the fact as they exist.

All in all, I give this book 3 stars. Read it if you nothing else to do and if you are curious about community and sex, porn, masturbation and ROTUNDAS. The beginning is kinda boring tho'

Summer Consumption

This is a series that basically recommends, disses, tears aparts my summer reading, writing, listening and viewing list. Feel free to recommend other books/CDs/DVDs that you think fit into the same category (or that you think I will like), or even join mii in reading or listening or watching any of these items.

Have a blessed weekend

Let mii be mii

I'm home
after 19 weeks
I am finally home
but all i am getting is grief

can't you just be glad that i made it back to Indy in one piece and start lynching my fro

Okay i have to admit after a week in the hospital my hair isn't presentable
but then again so what
why can't you just be happy to see mii
why do you have to try and change mii

i really don't know how this is going to end
should i bend
or stand firm

asa si gbo (crazy person)
i really don't care
i would rather spend the money on my bills and not on my hair

so i guess here is the question

why can't y'all just let mii be
crazy hair
tattered slippers
well worn clothes

why do i have to dress up and look cute and presentable
is there a verse in the Bible that commands mii to look presentable and fit the form

so yeah
the battle begins

my nephew had a recital and basically all the fam (or at least the 8 other members that were present) decided to dress mii down from my crazy half dyed auburn hair to my cracked lips to my slippers

yes it was all in jest and it was said with love and ment to uplift and not degrade but still
i would really just want to be
just be
just be

be mii, it seems like i was able to dress the way i wanted to which is basically flowing skirts and tank tops when i was in Houston but i have been back in Indy for 3 days and each day is another KAFO how can you wear that and HOW long have you had that

and i really don't see the big deal
i don't

so yeah
if you do and you can explain it to mii without being a snob

please do


have a blessed weekend

Sabbath Series: 7 - Unfinished chapter

Sometimes it is best if you first read it all
This is the first day that i have had internet access since Monday, my sister was in the ICU (she got discharged earlier today, THANK GOD) so i changed my flight plans and instead of going to Indy came to Portland. So anywayz, i'm in her room on Tuesday morning after about 2 hours of sleep and I'm trying to find the strength to go on and be courageous and all that jazz, so yeah, i'm in her room and my Message bible opens to Lamentations 3 and i start to read...

I'm the man who has seen trouble,
trouble coming from the lash of God's anger.
He took me by the hand and walked me
into pitch-black darkness.
Yes, he's given me the back of his hand
over and over and over again.
He turned me into a scarecrow

of skin and bones, then broke the bones.
He hemmed me in, ganged up on me,
poured on the trouble and hard times.

He locked me up in deep darkness,
like a corpse nailed inside a coffin.
He shuts me in so I'll never get out,

manacles my hands, shackles my feet.
Even when I cry out and plead for help,
he locks up my prayers and throws away the key.
He sets up blockades with quarried limestone.
He's got me cornered.

He's a prowling bear tracking me down,
a lion in hiding ready to pounce.
He knocked me from the path and ripped me to pieces.
When he finished, there was nothing left of me.
He took out his bow and arrows
and used me for target practice.
He shot me in the stomach

with arrows from his quiver.

Everyone took me for a joke,
made me the butt of their mocking ballads.
He forced rotten, stinking food down my throat,
bloated me with vile drinks.
He ground my face into the gravel.

He pounded me into the mud.I gave up on life altogether.
I've forgotten what the good life is like.
I said to myself, "This is it. I'm finished.
God is a lost cause."

Then the door opens and OREGON (this would be the man that she loves that the rest of the family wish she wouldn't) walks in. I say hi and then try and go back to my reading...

I'll never forget the trouble, the utter lostness,
the taste of ashes, the poison I've swallowed.
I remember it all—oh, how well I remember—
the feeling of hitting the bottom.
But there's one other thing I remember,
and remembering, I keep a grip on hope:

God's loyal love couldn't have run out,
his merciful love couldn't have dried up.
They're created new every morning.
How great your faithfulness!

Wow. stop this is the verse. His mercies are new every morning, Great is thy faithfulness. Hmmm... after all the tears and pain God is faithful sweet.

and then i stopped and got distracted by OREGON snoring (technically he came to visit my sister but ending up sleeping in my chair. Nonsense) and then I started thinking of all the things I wanted tell him but didn't because my sister is engaged to him and all that jazz and then they said they were transfering her back to the regular ward and so i became occupied and forgot about Jeremiah.

About four hours later we are walking to his car and he says something that pisses mii off and i told him to basically agree to not address mii until we got to their apartment cuz i didn't really want to sit in the car and listen to his opinion on anything and next thing i know he is calling my sister (who still has tubes plugged into her) and talking about calling security on mii. (child couldn't handle his own buziness he had run to a sick women in the hospital whoseyingggggg)

yeah let's just say the next hour wasn't really my shining Christian moment.

For the next four days I didn't open the Bible and let's just say that iu spent my prayer time cursing him out to God, so yeah it was still a prayer but still.....
Last night i had a mini crisis of faith and of course CSO (cool significant other otherwise know as boyfriend by the gen. public) helped mii thru it

and then

Today before OREGON came to pick us up from the hospital I decided to finish the passage

I'm sticking with God (I say it over and over).
He's all I've got left.
God proves to be good to the man who passionately waits,

to the woman who diligently seeks.
It's a good thing to quietly hope,
quietly hope for help from God.

It's a good thing when you're young
to stick it out through the hard times.
When life is heavy and hard to take,

go off by yourself. Enter the silence.
Bow in prayer. Don't ask questions:
Wait for hope to appear.....

Enter the silence, bow in prayer, don't ask questions?
Enter the silence, bow in prayer, don't ask questions?
Enter the silence, bow in prayer, don't ask questions.

now i am thinking if i finished the passage and even the chapter the past five days wouldn't have been as emotionally tasking as it was physically (took a shower once in the five days wore the same clothes and slept on a chair)


so yeah

Happy Sabbath and help mii to continue to pray that God gives my sister sense and strength cuz she sorely needs both
and that in the next 48 hours that i am here i do what Jesus would do.

Sabbath Series: 6: 525600 minutes

525600 minutes

I need to say more
I need to tell you about each minute
about the highs and the los

but i need to study
so yeah i'll chip in later

but yeah
I am officially five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes older