Inner Me Enemy Part 1: Choose your Choice

Seems simple.
Make a choice and live with it.
But is it?

In the return-friendly world in which we live
We have conditioned ourselves to buy items with the knowledge that returning is an option
And so we buy
And return

We try out shoes
return them
We buy cell phones
take them back
We purchase computers
keep the labels intact because there is huge chance we will return them

And each day we lose
Each day we surrender the norm of owning our choices to the idea of backing out of them.
So what
What does this matter

Let me pull back the curtain and invite you into the reality
Contentment is  a state of happiness and satisfaction
But when you are never satisfied with your current state, your current choice,
contentment becomes an elusive dream
Always chasing, never finding
Always reaching, never obtaining
And so we buy and return with the hope that the next item will bring peace.

It doesn't stop there
It extends to our relationships while we're unaware
We make friends
and when the going gets tough, our nature of returning bids us to do the same
and so we cash out
We make commitments
and when the reality doesn't measure up to the fantasy
we make excuses and back out.
We enter marriages with the same mindset that if it doesn't work out
If it doesn't feel right, we can leave
and so we do.
We feel as if our choices are chains
But they are ours,
As long as you are chasing the elusive dream
Your last choice will always be seen as a chain
Shackling you to a perpetual state of dissatisfaction

Look this message is for me
Sometimes the enemy is the inner me
So check it,
Check your motives and thoughts
Check your habits and your norms
Choose your choice and be at peace

This is a first draft.
No editing
I just needed to get it out of me so I can work in sanity.

Wordspiration I - John 10:10

His purpose is threefold:

His actions are evident.
But he's devious, 
so they appear innocent 
and he succeeds in his purpose.

What does he kill?
What does he steal?
What does he destroy?
Relationships, Lives, Dreams.

To live in this world
is to constantly be under attack.
To survive in this world
one must know your enemy's plan.
To thrive in this world
one must cling to the Cross.


Inspired by the Scripture below

Compassion Health Expo 2017

The spoken word piece compassion was inspired by an event organized by the Adventist Youth in Ontario. Part of the piece that I presented at the benefit concert is used in the promotional video.

For details on how to support Compassion 2017 please visit

Watch the 2 minute promo below.

Singspiration II: Way maker

God is a way maker
He parted the Red Sea
He tore down the walls of Jericho
He led the a lost Moses through the wilderness to Midian

God is a miracle worker
He turned water into win
He fed the 5000
He made the blind man see

God is a promise keeper
He gave Hannah a Son
He put David on the throne
He brought the children of Israel to the land promised to Abraham
God is light in darkness
Persecuting Saul to Preaching Paul
Violent Simon to Peaceful Peter
Deceiving Jacob to Trusting Israel

God has a way of turning our darkness into light. 
He has turned my darkness into light
He wants to turn your darkness into light

Inspired by the song below. 

To Syria With Love

I love you until the end of time.
I love you


Yes, Syria, I love you

But Jesus, all I see is pain, destruction and ruin, 
Did it not occur to you that we were already in anguish before you allowed this to happen to us, 

Syria, I really do love you

Seriously, God where should I start. The government, or the rebels. With the oppression or subjugation of a peoples desire for peace. 
Or the broken promises and shattered families, no just let me say this one word 

I see past the destruction of man made things and can identify with the pain covering tear streaked faces layered with dirt. I hurt with each labored breathe your lungs takes cuz they are all measured by mii. Bones broken, blood shed every single drop is recognized by mii.

The last gasp of each dying soul is chronicled and noticed by mii, I alone know the exact count and all the names to go with the faces now buried in deep in the Mediterranean.
Drowned, moments await from freedom.
 In vain, the world tries to quantify with estimate but I have life stories, not just bodies. Testimonies etched into my eternal memory constantly replay in my mind, on my hands are the names of the ones that died seconds before help arrived. Deprived of oxygen, struggling for air, the ones that screamed out my name, before their world went dark, I know them all.  I alone see all your pain not just the fractions that affect each faction.
Human feelings cannot be used to portray the depth of emotion that courses thru my veins.
I love you
You are loved by mii in ways that the world cannot understand
They see buildings reduced to rubble
So double your pain and triple your anguish and that just begins to scratch the surface of my grief because I know the history of everyone who wished they could live in such a building.
I know of the struggle that has replaced your blissful existence
I know of the pain that has become a constant stain on your soul
I know the day of conception of the child who dead body on the shore would ignite the nations
I know your pain and while the world now tries to make restitution and alleviate your suffering.
I can’t.
I wish I could swoop down with legions of angels to heal each wound, I have the power, I have the means and yet love prevents mii from intervening, refraining to act breaks my heart apart, like Mozart I must sit on the sidelines watching them try to recreate my symphony.
I see your pain I am not blind to your plight, I just can’t give you want you want
Because that will require mii to bring an end to sin today.
For me to wipe out evil and end the reign of Satan.
For me to reclaim dominion of the earth and bring about a rebirth that will impact every living atom in your stratosphere.

From above you want mii to take away pain but I can’t remove pain because to eliminate pain is to eradicate choice. I want to intercede and put an end to all’s life’s misery but I want to allow everyone on earth the opportunity to know me and choose me.
The world is a mess, ISIS is evil, and there are no cookie-cutter answers to assuage your suffering but Know this, I love you
Have hope in this love because I alone see the heart
Where they see ruin, I see rebirth,
where they see destruction I see determination made manifest in the eyes of each refugee who struggles to learn a new language.
I know you are scared to close your eyes as night,
Scared to sleep, so all you do is weep and remember the ones who never made it out alive.
Syria I see you.
I see the hope you hold on to that tomorrow will be easier.
I see the courage you apply as you cross deserts and lands only to be turned away by the very ones who you lend a hand
Syria I see you.
I see you pain, your misery.
Your promise and tomorrow.

For centuries your history has been intertwined with that of my people.
I love you, I sent them to love you but they didn’t
I sent them to share my truth with you but they instead embraced your mess.
Syria, I saw you then. I see you now and I love you still.
Resilient you are putting one step in front of another and you seek peace.
Beautiful you are each morning you are able to see the beauty in being alive and cherish each moment and thank mii for each breathe
Courageous you are each day choosing to live and not to give in to the darkness or take what the devil panders
Resourceful you are taking on the roles of father and mother children acting as parents
You are mine.
You are mine, on the days your scream out in pain and curse my name
You are heart, soul, mind, beauty, resilient and mine
You are courageous, resourceful, strong, determined and mine,
You are tired, in pain, scared, bruised, lonely, broke, orphaned and mine
You are mine.

I have bought you with my blood
I paid the price, stripped of all dignity, ridiculed by humanity just so on this day
on this day when your heart breaks from the weight of sin cold hand  I can hold you and call you mine and
give you peace that transcends this world
give you joy regardless of what is hurled
give you freedom to choose to cherish humanity
give you love to act with dignity
give you patience to deal with the weather
give you hope knowing that this won’t last forever
because you are mine
and one day I’m coming to reclaim what is rightfully mine